Hello,
I hope you all have had a good week.
Nearly four months ago I lost myhusband. We were married for over fifty years and I would have known him for fifty-
three years. I was reminded today as I walked around the supermarket doing the weekly shopping as we would have done together so many times over the years that there’s a light that burns brightly within us all and also around us.
I felt his presence as I walked through the supermarket and felt comforted by acknowledging his presence. I have felt his presence many times over the last few months encouraging me on through all the things that needed to be done after his death.
I was reminded of my own beliefs that I have held for my own lifetime that even when we die we are all still connected by the light we hold within ourselves, that we are made up of that light and energy and that when we die we step into that light more and become one with it. We become a thousand winds that blow, the diamond glints on snow, the gentle autumn rain, the soft stars that shine at night and so much morethan we were in the body that took us through this life.
With my husband’s death I have found a resilience that I didn’t know I possessed. He was the one who took care of the household bills and now I am the one who is doing this now. It was automatic for him and it seemed so easy and yet I know now that there was a skill to all he did. When change comes into our lives it challenges us to grow more within ourselves and I am finding this to be true with each passing day and with each new skill I am learning for myself now. I allow myself to embrace the change, even at times I may feel overwhelmed with it, I then learn to pace myself and allow myself to take the steps I feel I can do and eventually change becomesautomatic.
There is a void that is left after a death of someone you have loved. That void is part of your life. No one can replace the person you have lost. A change happens within you and you learn to grow around the void step by step. It will take as long as it takes, there are no rules around it. I miss my husband every day and know the void he has left in my family and friends lives, and yet I know that I am growing and becoming a person that is embracing life in this world as I learn to find the in myself to live my life without him in it.
For those of you who are grieving the loss of a loved one I feel your pain and know in my heart of hearts that the light within you is guiding you to healing and finding the resilience that lies within you. Aligning yourself with the light of love, kindness and compassion. Be gentle with yourself on your journey.
In love and light
By Teresa Clifford
Support and love from us to you Teresa ,thank you for sharing xx